So I was thinking....   What does it really mean when we are used in our weakness?  I always thought that this meant when we were materially poor, or insignificant in society, or physically weak, etc.  But recently... yes recently and for quite a while now I've been put aback at what I think I'm thinking... Can this idea mean that God shows his strenghths even in our spiritual weaknesses?  For a while I told myself no... because how can pure and evil ever mix to make good? 

Take the Apostle Paul (Saul of Tarsus).  He wrote a big chunk of the New Testament as it is today and yet he talked about how he still wasn't quite where he was suppose to be spiritually, and that thorn in his side issue...  what was it?  Could it be a sin he struggle with?  Something to keep him from becoming too holy... too lofty in thought and judgement...   We can't be for sure, but I think I understand this issue more than ever.

Reading about the news in Israel and Lebanon, the tsunamis, hurricanes, droughts, heat..   the end of the world?  Why should it matter?  This always seems like a wake up call for me, but then again, it shouldn't be about fear of judgement.,   but of true love for God with all your being.  I feel that burning sensations when I say that--that feeling of aliveness that comes when you know what's inside you. 

Why do people think you're so good when you know deep down inside your sins are the worst of them all?  A sin is a sin, but just the way some people view certain things...   This has kept my mouth shut and my eyes down.  Strangely though, it seems like i've made the biggest impact I've ever made in my surroundings.