so...here it is...3:10 in the morning...
i'm still wide awake...
listening to angels and airwaves (thanks to the massey)
watching meag sleep
waiting for church to be here
wishing i could see "the guy" again...one more time tonight.
wishing all of this drama could go away and life would be semi-normal.

yeah.
that's my thoughts.
[beccanator]

Ever heard of it?  That's what you call that mythical combination of The Wizard of Oz and Pink Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon.  Urban legend?  I thought so.  I thought so, that is, until I went to see the Belcourt Theatre's late night show of Dark Side of the Rainbow.

Ho-ly crap.

I always thought that it was something that stoners made up.  Because hey, when you've just dropped three tabs of acid, whatever you're looking at will probably match up right along with whatever you're listening to.

But it's real!  I mean, it wasn't second for second, note for note, but whoadang.  90% of the time, whenever the mood or tone of the scene changed, so did the music.

There were some amazing lyrical coincidences too.  Words that don't necissarily directly apply to the scene, but capture the scene's idea and spirit.  If you don't believe me, just watch it for yourself.

The weirdest thing was, when the album was done, they just started it over.  It it still worked!  The music still matched up!

And what started playing the instant Dorothy opened the door to Oz?  And what started playing when she, the Tin Man, the Scarecrow, and the Cowardly Lion walked up to ask permission to see the Wizard?

"Money".  (Don't get why that's a big deal?  Go look up William Jennings Bryan and his connection to The Wizard of Oz.)

Anyways.  I'm writing this at 2:47 AM.  I'm a little out of it right now.  The point is, this urban legend is true.  And if I ever decide to try drugs when I'm in college, I'm definately staying in, renting the Wizard of Oz, and listening to Dark Side of the Moon.

(Also, to support the independent Belcourt Theatre, my dad and I got nifty Dark Side of the Rainbow t-shirts and posters.  They have flying monkeys on them.)

for all who know or who care to listen
take a moment, rejoice, for the life you believe in
no longer a dream, but rather an answered prayer
a now found treasure, you thought was never there
let us shout with triumph, please stand with me
we're here now finally, where we ought to be
no longer on knees, to ask to overcome
the battle is over, and our war is won
yes stand up now, feel it in your heart
no more long nights to tear you apart
for we have conquered one and all
we held our faith, and He answered the call.

for the next two weeks ill be an only child

you all must keep me etertained here becuase iv never been an only child and dont think ill take very well to not having someone to bug at all times

yesterday they delevered all the household goods to dads new apartment and we unpacked those for bout 3 hours and then sset up all the stuff for the rest of the day

we took heather and teresa to the airport today so they could fly back home. heather lost her cell phone.... yeah give a 10 yr old a brand new rasor and she loses it imagine that.

tomorrow were going to the lake at 8 and my slalom skiing training will begin. imagine a boat and only 2 adults and 1 me that means lots of water time for milly!

well ill be around so ttyl kiddos

love you guys lots

-emily

  well... 

  i'm back. 

  it was.... 

  interesting? 

  well, that's not the word, but its the first word that comes to mind. 

  family get togethers are always interesing. 

  especially with mine... 

  anyway, i missed you kids lots. 

   i'll put pictures up later. 

  but i'm to lazy now. 

New musical artist I've been listening to
Tim O'Reagan
Wow

Well Thanks for the comments everyone and I have come up with one single answer for the question I thought about before...............................

 Is that no matter how confusing and hard life is all of that means nothing compared to Jesus Christ..... And though this life is confusing I choose to live it for the Glory of my heavenly father and that no longer leaves me confused....................

                            Amen

kate me bailey and bianca

so the mall today was fun.. i spent too much money in the usual place and had a blast with  bianca and sasha!


sasha is so awesome..

dresses and new shoes..

katie bug and the kelsinator!

..anyways..today was great, fun times at the mall...chinese food..and a nice concert to top it off in new clothes..:-)

love you-kels
 

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES

so, if you cant tell, i'm super excited!!! tomorrow i'm going to look at a 2000 passat and monday i'm looking at a 2001!!!! they make me happy

i would even be ok if we didnt buy one of them, but its the face that we are being productive in looking for a car...but seriously, both of these cars are SERIOUS possibilities...i'm even taking mom w/ the check book (though, i'm going to pay back most of it)

tyler comes home on monday (((i get my t-shirt!!!!!!!!!)))

fireworks at the castle's on monday night...pretty excited...get to see my little boys AND some freaking AMAZING fireworks!!!

well, i guess thats all folks, have a great one!

Spencer Lawson entered the world on June 28, 2006 at 2:54 am.  We are so happy to have him at home now.  Big brother is very proud. 

Everyone is healthy and doing well.  I'm recovering so much faster than I did with Harrison.   Jeremy's still babying me, though. I have to say I appreciate it.

Delivered this little guy with no meds.  He came really really fast.  Whoo!  (Ouch, to say the least.) 

yay!
new pics from the beach.
i def went surfing too.
well surfing lessons.
hahaa.
check it!

lovelove.
stacy.

i'm back!

what happened to my account you ask? well i'm glad you asked. i wasn't using it so i decided to get rid of it. i couldn't figure out how to shut it down though so i just unsubscribed to all my friends. a few months went by and i started feeling out of the loop. so that's why i'm back- so i can read about everyone else's lives when i'm bored with mine. and maybe to post my own thoughts from time to time :)

camp... for the second time.. can you say amazing?

evil spirits.. amazing God.... cute kids.. great friends... lots of jokes... late nights... cute guys....

what more could you want???

love you, Meag

KAMananus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Free Stuff!!!!

I like dat... I like dat alot!

I don't go with the flow!

I don't think you knooooooooow...

WAIT..... good enuff!

We smile ourselves to sleep!!

Counselours are never tired... we're always happy...

SILLY PEOPLE!

Its not white... its nude beige...

The 3 S's

Who's that fat guy???????

JoJo is my favorite ###### conatation... HAHA

Fat Basketballs....

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmm yeeeeeeeeaaah

I love you from the bottom of my heart.. like cheese and dolphins!

I AM THE QUEEEEEEEEN OF ETERNAL YOUTH AND BEEEEEEEEEEAUTTY.... AND IM HERE TO GRANT YOU both..... BUT I REALIZED... YOU DONT NEED EIIIIIIIIIIIITHER.... AND SO ILL KEEP THEM.... CUZ IM THE QUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN

HEY GUYS!!! What's goin on? Just wanted to let ya'll know that we all got here to Jericho just fine. We had a 10 hour lay over in Hong Kong yesterday, so we went and had a day on the town. It was not even planned and we just picked up and did it. It was pretty cool. We start our sports camp tomorrow (Monday... It's Sunday morning here and Saturday evening where you are). Its gonna be pretty stinkin awesome if I do say so myself. I'll be sure and post alot of pics. Cya then.

-Jeff

Since one grandma bought the paint the other one is buying accents for my room. so tonight we are going shopping for flowers and chairs and such.

So hope everyone's 4th of July goes GREAT!!! mine is going to be busy. going from one friends house one night to anothers the next. but all fun

It's the last week.....nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....

We're making two GSH shirts tomorrow.  "We" being just a group of us.

The first looks like this (the back is different for everyone):

And the second looks like this:

Today, we have a cookout, a swim party, and a baseball game.

It's amazing.

I love you.

Christina

I'm tired and congested. I want to sit in a corner, curl up and die right now. My head hurts and I'm tired cuz lately I've been having awkward nightmares that I'm a dude and I'd wake up at 3 in the morning sweating with relief that I am female but then I wouldnt be able to go to sleep because my vicks niquil wore off by then so, yes, I'm not happy. Plus, I had to get up and 6 this morning but ended up getting up at 6:40 with my mom yelling "YOU HAVE TO BE AT CHILIS IN 10 MINUTES!!!!". It's been a rough day.... luckily, my cool cousin's coming over today to make it all better. This has been stuck in my head allllllllllllll day. Stupid Ringer movie.....: 

"I'm Jeffy. I like apples!"

"I work at Burger King! Would you like fries with that?"

"So, are you on the computer?"  "No, I'm walking my dog!"

"You scratched my cd."  "I'm sorry, i didnt mean to."  "You picked it up in broad daylight... and you scratched it."

"Billy, can you pass the ketchup?"  "*giggles* I can!" "Billy, can you please pass the ketchup?!?!"

"Hey, how many fingers do I have?"  "Uhm... 10."  "No, 8 and 2 thumbs!"

"I love Dirty Dancing! They're dancing, and it's dirty!!!"

"When I was 6, my uncle would give me long awkward hugs."

"Wow, I love camping!"

"Should I wear my shirt up? Or down? Up? Or down, or POSSIBABLY.... tucked in?"

"Be quiet! Stavi's trying to talk!"  "No, I'm not Stavi, the gut with no finger's is Stavi."

"You know, you scratched my cd."  "Yeah, I thought we put that behind us."

Then there was the pancake breakfast. That was pretty fun. My best friend came and I got to serve her. That was pretty weird. I'm gonna take a nap or sumthin. bye

Germany Goalkeeper Lehmann Makes A Save From A Kick By Argentina's Cambiasso During The Penalty Shootout In Berlin

Germany players celebrate after their shootout win in the quarterfinal World Cup soccer match between Germany and Argentina

German soccer fans celebrate during the World Cup quarterfinal match between Germany and Argentina

Brazil's Ronaldinho

Germany goalie Jens Lehmann (1) makes a save on the penalty kick by Argentina's Roberto Ayala (2) during the shootout in the quarterfinal

Brazil's striker Ronaldinho kisses a ball during a training session at the stadium in Dortmund, Germany

Kaka, right, cheers with Roberto Carlos on his back, as Ronaldinho, left, comes to join them, after Kaka scored 1-0 during the Brazil v Croatia

Has anyone had the following happen to them before? We were in our car, a 2001 Buick, w/o Onstar yesterday and suddenly a loud voice came through the speakers saying "VOICE FEEDBACK IS NOW OFF". Any idea what this could have been? Was our car 'bugged', hmmm. Thanks for ideas.

I'm thinking about skydiving, but don't want to do it alone.  If interested, leave a remark or something...

So yeah ive just been reading everyones sites and i finally realized that compared to everyone elses summer mines been completely boring.  i mean i havent gone anywhere, havent done anything (other than VBS at ginnys church and school), and so yeah im completely boring.  i mean wow, what a summer.  but yeah i would like to go and do something, so yeah but no one ever asks me to do anything, ive been wondering why that is.  is it because im boring???

i dont know anything other than im going to the movies tonight and that will be the only thing ive done this summer for fun.  yeah im always home (after 4:00) so if anyone wants to do anything give me a call.


goali     

- License is rocking

- Haven't relly been home befroe 3 in a while

- Can't sleep anymore

- Talked to an old friend about Jesus last night for a while

- Need to get things straight with him

- Thinking about doing a fast from guys

- Went to bed last night about 5am

- Skate night last night

- I think i'm getting sick

- Family get together tonight

- I'm tired as all get out

- I'm addicted to water and trident orange gum....

                                    Random pictures...

 Dancing in IHOP at 2am

 Tyler's grossed out face

 Sonny's... ' I'm sexy face.'

 I don't really know why Naomi was covering her boobs in that one....

 Me SNEEZING at work...

 My new best friend.... 'Mr. Purell'

 Half asleep Answering phone calls... i think i said good afternoon... MAN i can't remember....

 At work.....

 Same NASTY hair as last night....

 Same shoes....

 Same skirt, lace tank, black tank, just instead of white zip-up, now i have a white tee... i think i slept a whole hour in these clothes... no no didnt. they were just the first thing i saw on my floor.... o the life

we are leaving for opry mills at 10 45.... sooo if you have nothing to do today you should comce visit me!...ill have my phono

How true that is.

This past Tuesday, Lauren and I went to Starbucks and the mall. Throughout the randomness of the conversations, the idea of me calling Mrs. Dabney, the head lady of ESP, back to see if she would send me to another school for a second interview came up. While this topic had come up several times throughout the past month, I never called. Tuesday night was different; when Lauren first mentioned it, something ((God, I'm sure)) was like "Do it. Seriously, call tomorrow." Lauren and I part, and I start driving home. Suddenly, I start talking outloud to God ((I rarely pray out loud, btw)). I'm earnestly asking him that I at least land an interview by Friday because I can't stand not having a job. So Wednesday rolled around, and at about 9:00, I called Murfreesboro City Schools and asked to speak with someone in ESP, believing that I would have to leave about three messages with the secretary throughout the day because Mrs. Dabney never answers her phone. Who do you think picked up? Not the secretary. Dabs herself. I explained what was going on, she tooky my number and said she'd pull my file and that she'd most certainly send me to another site. Cool beans. I figured she'd call back Thursday or Friday, and if she didn't, I'd give her a call back. I got a call Thursday and she said that there was a position at Cason Lane that she had for me if I wanted to interview for it the following day. . . Friday. I agree to an interview, and I'm to go in at 11:00. Friday rolls around, I go to the interview, and I have the job in less than twenty minutes. In fact, when she let me know I had the position, it was 11:16.

So needless to say, being twenty has gotten off on a great start.

I had a lot of fun yesterday. After going to Starbucks with some good friends, I drove over to meet my family at Carrabba's. Karen and Aunt Nyla were already there, and we soon found out there was at least a seventy minute wait. A starving Anna and seventy minute waits do not go hand in hand, so I suggested O'Charley's, and off we were. It was really great; the food rocked, the waiter kicked butt, the conversation was awesome, and I was sung to:

How lovely.

Oh, btw, I was born at 11:16 in the morning.

How much does God rock?

This is THE decade ;)

Well I got home from Louisiana last night after a 13 hour drive and one of my managers at work calls me at 11:00pm and says can you work night shift tonight for us. They had really big problems and needed me to help majorly. So I agreed. I worked till 7:00am. Now its time for sleep time. I go to work tonight from 11:00pm - 3:30pm on Sunday. The Overtime tonight is gonna rock. 8.5 hours of time and a half oh yea !!!

so, sean broke up with me
he said he felt 'too tied down' to the relationship

i'm a wreck

and i don't think i'll get that job

i need someone

My iPod still doesn't work.  Well, it works, just not like it should.  It still can't connect to my computer, which sucks because I have recently acquired a large amount of new music.  Oh well, eventually it will be fixed. 

On another note, I think I want to be a bouncer while I'm in college.  I may not be all that big, but I am kind of intimidating.  And bouncers get to have power over other people's lives: not getting into a certain club could ruin some peoples' delicate social lives.  That just sounds fun!  Oh, and most places pay pretty well to keep out the "wrong people." 

Just a thought…

So, I've been thinking about why I act like I do. Not so much about the actions themselves, but what drives me to take the course I do.

Like... I know I act shallow at school. I generally act shallow around people. It doesn't mean I am shallow, but I use it as a defense mechanism to keep people at bay. Sort of like a 'danger: high voltage' sign, or some such thing.

I've also noticed that I've gotten flakey with my eating habits. Some times I gorge myself on food and other times I don't eat at all to balance the binging. I find all these flaws with myself, flaws I'm sure no one else can see. I guess I just need something to control.

This summer has been pretty quakey for me. My dad has these moments where he'll be nice, and I don't know how to deal with that. Atleast when he's yelling at me, I have a knee-jerk reaction. I can deal with him hating me. I don't remember a time when he actually liked me, so I know how to react when he yells. My reactions aren't always the best ones, but they're still reaction. When he is nice, I don't know what to do. I just sort of stand there with a dumb look on my face and stutter. 

Most of you will wonder why my dad being nice makes my summer shaky, but most of you don't know my father. My father isn't one of those things I like people to know about.

I dunno. I just felt like getting some stuff out of my system.

Ugh...  I feel like such a sissy.  I'm completely worn out after only two days of work.  Well, today it didn't help that I got about four hours of sleep, got up for my senior pictures at 6 AM, had my first meal around noon, wandered around aimlessly with Mady, and then went to work for four and a half hours.

Pretty exhausting.

So the pictures this morning were alright.  I think my outdoor photographer was frustrated with me.  According to my grandmother, I smile the way my grandpa smiles; I just can't do it of my own free will.  The only way you actually get anything close to a smile is if I'm laughing.  So, after the "I Like to Move It Move It" song wore off (apparently, Megan had the same photographer later in the day), he switched to reciting lines from "I'm a Little Teapot."

Hey, it was dumb, but it worked.  The funniest by far, though, was the lady who did the indoor shots.  I managed some sort of cool face and was trying to hold it for the camera and she said, "Oh, you are so sassy right now!"  I lost it.  It wasn't just one of those oh-my-face-slipped-I'll-but-now-I've-got-it back deals.  I was seized by a fit of the giggles for a good fifteen seconds.

Sooo.  Work!  If we stay busy, it's no big deal.  Time seems to fly by when you're making icee after lemonade after shaved ice after bag of cookies.  But if there's little business and all there is to do is decorate cookies and clean... it's a pretty big bore.  And by the end of my shift, I'm itching to sit down for a solid 24 hours or throw myself down on a bed and sleep for forever.

I have been getting a lot of work, though!  If my schedule doesn't change, by my first paycheck I will have gotten a good 21 hours.  That's $115 before taxes and the $6 taken out for my uniform shirt.

And when my schedule picks up, I'll probably be averaging about 20 hours a week instead of every two weeks.  So that'll be nice.

Hooray for employment!

Well for the third time this summer, my mom has decided to leave me here and go to south carolina to the beach. Only this time, she's taking my bro with her. So I will be home alone til wednesday. So yeah, let's party it uuuup haha. jk. Well I got my senior pics in, and they are pretty much muy bueno. So I need some people's opinions on which ones to order. So ask me and i'll show them to you, but u might have seen them already, b/c my mom already showed half the church. Oh well. But life is good...summer is fye. And the good news....I DON'T HAVE TO WORK AT ALL THIS FREAKIN WEEKEND!!!!!!!! And the other good news....I JUST GOT A FREAKIN $400 PAYCHECK BOOOOOOOOOOOYA SKEEEDADEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! I'm out -
~G

you ever get a gift from someone and you aren't expecting it to be a certain thing, like something waaaaay off from what you were expecting, and you just wanna cry b/c you don't want it and really have no interest in it but the person who gave it to you was really excited? then you make them feel bad b/c you seem not to care.

yeah. happy birthday to me.

Why does this life have to be so hard and confusing?????????????

You are Tinkerbell from Peter Pan, you love your best friend and your worst fear is their hearts being broken. Although you are manipulative you usually have good intentions.

well im prolly gunna be done with this no one reads it anyways... but yea alabama tomorow yeah!!!! only thing i havent seen anyone in a month... so basically im just alot home sick... ilu later

by:Sarah Gearhart.

Beautiful is more acceptable than sexy or hott.
Baby is something that I can never get tired of being called.
Hugs are a must,
but are only good when they're real.
Suprise kisses are awesome.
Sweet talk is always nice.
Honesty is the best.
4-10hour phonecalls are lovely.
Dates are best when he pays...but I'll pay too,
cause it's not fair to make him pay <i>everytime</i>.
Seranade me..i'll love you forever..haha.
Listen to what I have to say,
and if you don't understand tell me you don't understand,
and if you don't really care, let me know,
so i don't bore you to death.
make me feel special...i'll  like that.
but most of all,
make me want to be with you.
cause that sensationi of butterflies
when you smile at me,
or i see your name pop onto my caller I.D.
&& give me chills when you look me
directly in the eyes, not directly in my
...well as the black eyed peas say "lumps"
&& the Pussycat dolls refer to as "muh"
&& never lie...because i'll find out,
and i'll lose total respect for you.
don't use me...i'm more important than that.
don't think you can just
have me anytime, cause eventually,
I'll move on, and find out about your "game"
don't play me...because us "hoe's" have each other's back.
be real at all times,
&& you'll have my respect.

i got a job

i work at carrabba's

start sunday

7 to 10 bucks an hour, depending on tips

hell yea...

My Answer is You

There's a world of difference when faith is in a heart
It stands out like sunlight
Life becomes so dark
And when those around me ask me why I dare to dream
Or why I love or why I sing

My answer is You
My answer is You
You're the hope that my heart is holding on to
Skeptics won't understand
It's strange from the world's point of view
My answer is You

They might find it incredible to believe what I can't see
They might think it's foolish
Or even say it's weak
I want to live my life so differently because of faith
If it causes them to question, for me to say

My answer is You
My answer is You
You're the hope that my heart is holding onto
Skeptics won't understand
It's strange from the world's point of view
But my answer is plain and it's simple, Lord
My answer is You!

Yesterday I was so upset when I was the only one on the line that actually had to work today and didn't get off.  I didn't understand why I had to pack motors in a different department and everyone else got today off.  It actually turned out ok.  I only had to pack motors from 6-7 then I got moved to the MST line, which my dad designs for, and I had a blast!  My friend Charles, who is 19 and turns 20 11 days before I turn 19, works on that line and he sat next to me and we talked the whole time.  It was really fun getting to know him a lot better.  He is from Michigan and he has the greatest northern accent!  I love it!  He told me he was sad that I'm going to Chattanooga for college but that I need to go to college.  I told him I might be back at Kingston for Christmas and next summer and that cheered him up a little bit.  Oh and then I only had to work until 12 and dad and I went to the lake and went on a long sea-doo ride and I skiied.  It really did turn out to be a wonderful day and it's about to get even better because Leah and Megan are coming over and spending the night and get to come to the lake with me tomorrow.  My weekend is looking great now too!  The only downfall...I have to work at 4 on Monday morning.  This means getting up at 2:45!  That kinda stinks but I'll get off at 12 again and can go to the lake.  I'm loving my life right now.    

well nothing much has been going on. my friends birthday is coming up that is going to be awesome. and i start work on wendsday. well i guess thats it.

Andrew

im gonna be at the beach with my cousin and im gonna be in a car for ten hrs with anly my mp3 player phone and brother for entertainment so any one who reads this is required to call me 785-1918 plz i will be in desprate need of someone else to talk to besides my psycho brother and cousin to talk to SERIOUSLY EVRYONE DO THIS, SHOW IT TO UR FRIENDS LET THE WORD OUT TELL EVRYONE!!! and now a real life account of the evil of giraffes "my cousin was viciously attacked by a giraffe and now when evr he goes to toys'r'us he pees his pants

last day of vbs- im gonna miss those kids

went to nashville to get my 17 year old license but the stupid printer broke so we went to the one in murfreesboro which turned out not to be that crowded

got dashboard confessional ( :

now im goin to a sounds game.

ok so i ended up not going to the sounds game due to the fact that it started hailing on our way there.  instead my family and i went to hollywood video and got a few movies to watch. 

soccer is tomorrow.  thatll be fun.

ttfn

thursday night.. at midnight.. me and my bestest bud chase are going to go see the pirates of the caribbean. that's right. i get to see it before you do. hehe =D

The month of August needs a holiday.

I'M GOING TO SEE DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL!!!!

i'm incredibly excited!!!!!

So here it is.. not totally finished but most of the way.

hey hey

yeah pretty sure this week has been amazing! ill talk to you guys later!

Leah

One of the last things that Jesus said was that he was going to prepare a place for us, a place of many mansions, crystal sea, streets of gold.  The Bible also states that there will be work in heaven.  So here is my thought.
 Do you think the things we do here on Earth is just building up a stack of lumber and the work that we will do in heaven is building our own mansion?  God will make us build our own dwelling.  I mean, we are not going to complain about it if that is the case, we will be in the presence of God.  But wonder if when we enter through the gates of heaven, St. Peter says, "Shelby, your lumber pile is the 8th one on the left and the supply house for the hammer and nails is down at the Mansion Depot and if you want a gold sidewalk go see Matthew and Mark, tell them I sent you."
Would that not just flip your lid? 
Thoughts??

Alright so this past hour was insane.....I have no idea what just happened either......see I have been sick since monday and since then it has become increasingly hard to breath eat and well basically go about living normally.....well just recently I was woken up by the fact that when my eyes were closed it felt like the world was spinning out of control....then if my eyes were open it felt like something was going to burst out of my stomach at any moment.......now I have had a fever this past week and right when all this began it was gone, I had woken up to a cold sweat and no fever anymore.....anyways I think hey I probably just ate something bad and I need to get it out of my system so I go to the bathroom......I sit in there coughing for almost 30 mins.......coughing sneezing w/e just nothing to help is really happening......the feelings not going away and I am not puking.......anyways......I finally get the strength to leave the bath room and come back and lay down only to find I can't sleep and my fever is back......what a weird thing to happen.......I can't explain it......can anyone help with that one??

    Tomorrow morning is the pancake breakfast at Chili's.  All Ya'll who are going to Orlando need to be there at 7 AM to help take tickets and serve and clean up and stuff.  If ya'll don't show up and only a few end up doing all the work I'm.. gonna... um.... do something mean!  I'll have to think about that one but you should be very nervous!  See you at 7 AM!

superman returns is awesome. you should go view it. even though it may cost you 45 arms and 87 legs. unless you go to the matinee. anyways you should view it.

I just felt like writing.. This isn't really about anyone.. Just something that came to mind.  Hope you enjoy.
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OH!
I wanna say what I stand for..
I stand for the brightest looks
On the darkest days
Where you can't seem to breathe
But then air burst from your veins
OH!
I wanna stand for that
perfect smile that you make
When you look in my eyes
That makes me stand there in awe
And lift you up towards the skies....

Oh.. I.............
Could stand for all that you're worth....
Oh.. I............
Could make it worth your while
Just to put up with me
Cause I'm crazy for you

after dinner tonight, i slept...  4 hours.  i slept from 7 to 11.  i only woke up when stacy called.  for the past couple of hours, i've been playing some computer games.  i wonder if i'll be able to sleep later...  i think i will. 

Stacy's coming home tomorrow.  i'm really excited.  i miss her...  bunches.   

Sunday: I saw Tokyo Drift again.. my parents left.

Monday: I hung around with the neighborhood crew.. went to youth group.

Tuesday: I hung around.. went to an awesome birthday party.

Wednesday: I hung out with friends.. saw Superman Returns (ok movie)

Today: hung around.. Matt and Ethan returned.. played Frisbee Golf.. had Chick-Fil-A.. LEARNED HOW TO DRIVE A STICK!!!

that was cool...

Everyday: watched Smallville with Aaron the youth pastor. lol

been a fun week. Hangin around a lot. made summer times.

<JA(OB>

so. on Sunday i left for DBS Convention @ the Opryland Radisson in Nashville. it was actually really different from what i expected. i actually kinda had fun, and made a few new friends. i really learned a lot, and i'm really excited about this coming year in DBS. but man am i gonna hafta shell out a lotta moneys....ha. i'mma hafta start selling drugs...j/k, guys, j/k. the hotel was pretty neat. and i got to go shopping @ Opry Mills w/ not a penny to my name. sad. oh well. i don't really have much to say i guess. i was in the process of watching The Exorcism of Emily Rose, but i turned it off. i'mma finish it tomorrow, cause i was a bit too creeped out. scary stuff, but well-written scary stuff. cool beans. nayways, i'mma got to bed. nite nite g's...much love---Cari 

While there are some bands I simply dislike but can still agree that they might agree with someone else's tastes, these are the obvious bad choices, the ones that are just bad.

1.  Simple Plan/Good Charlotte--I have an idea: let's construct a band and its music entirely off the pseudo-tragedy of white middle-class junior high "teen angst" and make money off of it.

2.  Hillary Duff/Lindsay Lohan--one's a slut with mediocre pop, and one's not.  Any questions?  How about we not give recording label contracts to movie stars, especially from fuckin Disney channel!  In particular, this really grates my nerves to think that half-wit bimbos with little musicality at all can sell more than diligent musicians who have slaved over their associated skills--whether instrumental or vocal--and then record labels complain that people pirate music.  Hypocrisy!

3.  The Simpsons--No, not the animated ones, but rather Ashlee and Jessica and their father.  Neither of which is any good, especially Ashlee, but I call the root of all evil as the main culprit.  Question: why their suddenly abdicate the "call of God to the ministry" to help his kids?  The money, folks...it's called you can't serve two masters!

4.  Nickelback--One phrase--"How You Remind Me"/"Someday" overlay....

5.  Gwen Stefani--I gave some credit to her proboscised vocals when she had a band, but her recent trade-off to join a whole bunch of weird Asian chicks and create the blasphemy that is "Love, Angel, Music...Baby" warrants a harsh rebuke.  Come on, why Fiddler on the Roof...why did you have to go and do that?

6.  Bloodhound Gang--They're not that funny, and they're not musical.

7.  Ciara--Somewhere along the line, you could become an R & B artist by hitting only two notes in a song.

8.  H.I.M.--You may not have heard to them; but yes, they are a band; and yes, somehow, someway, they sell records.  For Heaven's sake, they have an album named "Greatest Love Songs Vol. 666."  Their sheer stupidity in naming an album is reason alone to cast them aside.  Don't fall for their ridiculous "love metal" label.

To be continued...

I don’t know what’s wrong with my iPod, but I’m pretty sure that it’s this computer’s fault.  I probably picked up a virus from that donkey screwing a dog… just kidding.  Anyway, I’ve tried everything on the support site except uninstalling iTunes.  I tried to, but all I got was a weird error.  That’s what made me think about a virus.  It could also be a bug in the program, I mean it’s not like Apple is absolutely perfect, especially when making a program compatible with crappy old Windows.  Oh well, I figure one of my friends can probably fix it when I see them again.  Anyone reading this should also check out this video, it's pretty funny.

i have been single for 18 years.  and for at least the past 4 i've been trying to fix that.  because apparently all high schoolers have to have a significant other... or thats what ransey told me.  i guess id given into the idea that a guy can complete me.  when in reality most guys cant even complete a jig saw puzzle. 

tonight i discovered that there was a reason for my singleness.  i think God was protecting me from being hurt.  he knows how afraid i am of that anyway. 

only in Christ can i be complete.  all the wonderful guys from my beloved chick flicks combined into one super duper romantic love fest could not complete me.  Christ is love.  He is the center of the original love story.  The Bible. 

this is stuff ive been taught for years.  but i guess it just moved from head knowledge to heart knowledge tonight.

so, im still single.  but i am ok with that now.

"But Christ demonstrates his own love for us in this:  While we were yet sinners, Christ died for us."                   Romans 5:8

1st pic is of sasha me ans kate..the 2nd is a drawing i did in class today ...we only had about 15 minutes..live models are fun stuff..the last one is of ben frederick being a photo nerd..tonight was fun stuff..

im starting to get to know people and we are all getting used to eachother.. i uploaded a ton of pictures ..so check em out!..love you-kels

have u ever sneezed soooooo loud that u scared yourself?????        yea, me either

have u ever been soooooo rich in money that u didnt know what to do with it?             haha, yea me either....          peace playas.........

IS YOUR CHEVY RIDING HIGH?

AND IF U RIDE RIMS, U GATTA RIDE FLATS!  UH  HUH!!!

Watch this video, it shows POTC ride and its addition of Jack Sparrow... it also includes Johnny's reaction to his animatronic self.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bTQ5eWBlApY

We got crazy at Old Time Pottery today. My ghetto friend, Jamie, and I were the only two cashiers tonight. We called each other names and ended up with me in a headlock and her sitting on top of me. It was great. Linda, the old head-cashier just sat there laughing at us. My new name is Daphnie (given by Jamie).

I've recently learned that going to bed sooner, and getting up earlier makes one feel much better. This, shall be a habbit.

Tyler, the amazing person he is, got his ACT scores back today. If you're on myspace you should leave him comments (myspace.com/charlestylerturner) because he might be going to college for free. Not just tuition, but tuition, room and board, books, everything. I'm quite proud of him.

     We wrap our arms around one another and pray in the front yard of the house we've called home, on Thursday nights, for varying amounts of time. In the moment a soft spoken tear wells gently in my eye. In an attempt to hide it I refuse to acknowledge it. As I make my way for my truck it quietly falls, cutting at my pride, as I reach for the door. I turn my back and walk away from something I know will never return.

     With memories tight inside our hearts, the lights turned off, the doors locked and the crowd dispersed, we all do the same. What we know as Atwood Family Fun has now come to an end.

     The night is warm in late June and annoying, repetitious fireworks screech in the distance. I take my seat in what is probably one of my favorite places on this earth and begin to ponder and attempt to concentrate. Tonight my seat faces west, so as I beg a question, I watch the sun set faithfully yet again.

      I beg the 'always productive' question of "why." "Why do seasons change?" I'm completely uncomfortable with it and have never grown to like it. Why do people I love leave? Why do people change? Why do things happen that are so far beyond my control but affect me so deeply? How can a human walk in and out of a life so quickly but leave an imprint on a heart that will be felt for eternity?

     The Atwood's home is only a small example of a season changing and coming to a close. But, tonight, I think it's the thematic concept more than the event that bothers me so.

     I'm drawn back to a passage that's big in my life. It's Hebrews 12:7-11

7It is for discipline that you endure; God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom his father does not discipline?

 8But if you are without discipline, of which all have become partakers, then you are illegitimate children and not sons.

 9Furthermore, we had earthly fathers to discipline us, and we respected them; shall we not much rather be subject to the Father of spirits, and live?

 10For they disciplined us for a short time as seemed best to them, but He disciplines us for our good, so that we may share His holiness.

 11All discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness.

     Someone told me the other night the thing to know about this passage is that the translator got a word wrong. "Discipline" should actually be translated "training." So everywhere we read "discipline" we should read "training."

     All training for the moment seems not to be joyful, but it hurts like crazy, yet those who have been trained by it, afterwards, it yields the PEACEFUL FRUIT of righteousness. (jv paraphrase)  

     Season changing is not comfortable. It seems sooo… NOT peaceful. It is no fun (and it tends to happen rather rapidly in college), but it is all intentional. It is ALL to train God's children into who He has for them to be.

     As the night has quietly slipped up and covered my lovely 'boro for the evening I'm reminded of the trainer and His UNCHANGING faithfulness. Just as He brings the night, He WILL bring the morning.

     So I tuck my memories back in my pocket, close my Bible and Journal, and simply pray. Rest in the maker…

                                                Clinging Yet Moving

                                                                    - JV

 

NEED Friends For My MySpace ...........................................

Lucky me.
The girl they like cause i'm different.
Cause i'm funny && sweet.
I'm wanted like crazy.
&& picky as hell.
They won't wait for me.
I'm too difficult for them.
moving to fast happens quite often.
&& they end up hating me.
Lucky me.
I'm the "problem child"
I'm a smart ass.
I'm fxcked up.
I have bad habits
that only come out from hiding
on those extra bad days.
I try.
I get no where.
Lucky me.
I should just stop trying.
I wanna be perfect.
I'm sick.
I'm dumb.
Lucky me.

--Sarah.

Could Disney Have Faulty Rides, That Was My Thoughts When I Heard About
That Kid From Ky. I Know That Disney Isn't The Only Theme Park That has
Fatatiles But They Have Had The Most Recent One.

According to
the U.S. Consumer Product Safety Commission (CPSC), from 1997-2000
there was an average of 4.5 estimated fatalities per year at fixed-site
and mobile amusement parks combined. Fatalities related to fixed-site
amusement rides have averaged two annually over the last 25 years.

I Know That Disney Has Had At Least 5 Deaths In The Past 3 Months.

And That Was My Daily Rambilings HE HE What Fun 2 Post Within 2 Minutes

So I Was Bored and Decided To Put Some Funny Pictures Have Fun.....

19 days till the first instrumental

are you ready?

have you been practicing?

are you ready to be good leaders for the freshmen to follow?

are you ready to rock heavy this marching season?

good

cause i am

okay guys, party is still on...

but i am freakin out!
im gonna have bills! im gonna have to buy groceries and clean and cook and be domesticated! and it is startin to scare me that 2nite is the last night i live in the house as a resident, at least for the time being u know... guys please pray i dont have a nervous breakdown.

p.s. both my parents have already had extremely teary moments, and it kills me that im doin it to them... then i must remember that they wont wake me up at 7 on saturday and i can remain composed for a bit.

other than that things are pretty good, class ends next Wednesday so thats good. then work work work til school starts again, gotta make rent now, and electric, and water, and cell phone bill, and gas! dang its tough to be on ur own...

Do you ever wish that just a few things would go the way that you want them too? And the very moment you think they are...BOOM :: crash and burn ::

"Love people like it matters...because it does." - from a person who changed my life forever.

Okay.  A long, long time ago I fell madly {{and unrequitedly-slash-he-had-no-clue}} in love with a gorgeous gentleman.  We'll call him Fido.  No, it wasn't a dog.  That's gross.  REGARDLESS.  Fido and I had seen each other occassionally at the place of commerce where he works and established a rather lovely rapport, if I do say so.  Got on first name basis, exchanging life//childhood details, et cetera.  Certain friends who knew of my undying love {{tongue-in-cheek, haha, no pun intended *wink*}} were harrassing me about making 'moves' and being bold and other crap like that.  All of the above has gotta count for something, right?  So I'm in Place of Commerce and we're talking, asking how each other is, pleasantry-pleasantry-pleasantry.  And Fido says he's even better than last time we talked!  Well, of course, I ask why.  Share the joy, and all.

"Well, I got another job, and tomorrow my wife finds out if she's having a boy or a girl!"

?!!!

My response: to gasp rather too loudly and clap both hands over my mouth.  Fortunately, Fido interpreted this as shared happiness for him, and added, "Yeah, I'm pretty excited, too."  At this point I had recovered my composure enough to whip out those improvisational acting skillZ and congratulate and be all girly with his girly coworkers about it.  {{All the while contemplating suicide.}}

AGH!!  UGH!!  URRRG!!!!  *Spasm*

My one true love has betrayed me.... *Melodramatic Fainting Motions*

So yeah, I thought you guys might enjoy that and get a good laugh out of my broken heart.  </3  Because I don't want to suffer in vain, you know.  ;)

Yeah, I'll laugh after the therapy.  Chocolate counts as therapy, right??

So my parents decided that after over 3 years of having a cell phone they would put a house phone in my room.  I always thought it would be the other way around, but parents tend to think in the oddest ways.

i have freakin' mono.

i would just like to fall over dead, now.

and right before potc2, too . . .

maybe i'll get better . . . SOON.

(you should pray for me)

Im in Dallas right now! :)

Today is my final day as a teenager. . .

WHOA BABY!!!

People say 20 isn't a big deal, but am I the only one that thinks that not being a teenager anymore is a big deal?

Hot dang!

BTW, a few people and myself are going to Starbucks tomorrow at 4:00 to hang out. I guess it's "for my birthday", but it's nothing big. I just want to see people before going out to eat with my family. I don't have several numbers, so if you read this, you're welcome to come :)

ok heres my philosiphy on life i no no one cares but ur about to be force-fed this information: i think that life and evrything good in it is a gift from god so enjoy them and dont mope about the bad things cuz life is the single greatest thing in the universe and u only get 1shot so dont waste it complaining about how much it sucks, sure its ok to be sad now and then but when the good times come make em worth it and thank god for what u do have instead of blaiming him for what u dont. i dont care whether u agree or not thats ur decision and im not trying to force my beliefs on anyone (like theres a whole lot of people who read this anyway) ok i just wanted to say that . . . im not sure why ok thats enough of the serious stuff time to get back to the good side of rock that we call home- tomorrow me and my friend carl are goin to see click at7:00 if anyone at all wants to come call(785-1918) or something and if u dont know carl hes a short skinny cool dude it would sure be cool if someone else came(hint-hint) darn-it somtimes im suprised by how subtle i am . . . im pretty sure this is the longest thing ive evr written outside of school . . . u feel special dont u . . . dont lie to me i can feel the specialness emanating from u . . . (cough cough rap sucks cough) again we see that idiotic (well the idiotic part is in just about evrything i do)  subtlenessocity  

i am packed and ready to go.
how 'bout we leave now..?

yayyy! im going to the beach!
i will miss yall.. see you wednesday =)

A while back, we gave Daniel some little fruit puff stars (a fruit flavored rice crispy type finger food) and when we gave him a bath, we found several of them in the bathroom.  I wasn't sure where he was keeping them, but now I know for sure.  He had some Cheerios for a snack this morning and when I changed his diaper, I found four of them down the front of his diaper.  We have now found at least one of his stashes.  Now if we could only figure out where he stuck Josh's nametag for four days...

By the way, Daniel is still immensely cute.  If you don't believe me, check out the duckie bathrobe pictures in my photo box.

1. Pro. Who?

2. Stevie Wonder (ABI)

3. Glow Family

4. $4.50 for a glow ball (Me)

5. I can't count

6. Liv was mad (po) b/c she lost to Monoply for the 1st time

7. 2 whoooo games of clue

8. "Booty Bowling"

9. Parents gone = no cerfew= clubbin'

10. i got a 99, abi got a 96 - never

11. ABI can pop the buttox

Oh......Mm......Oh....
What am I doin' here,
Why do I feel like this?
It's not like I haven't done this before,
Whats wrong with me?

What am I doin' here,
What the hell am I thinking?
Why is my arm around your waist,
Why are my lips kissing yours?
What am I doin' here,
What the hell am I thinking?
Well isn't it obvious,
I'm thinkin' of you!

I'm glad that I went to the movies that night,
And I'm glad that they were all sold out.
Would we have walked around that night,
Would you fallin' asleep on that couch next to me?
Why do i feel like this,
It's not like I haven't done this before!


What am I doin' here,
What the hell am I thinking?
Why is my arm around your waist,
Why are my lips kissing yours?
What am I doin' here,
What the hell am I thinking?
Well isn't it obvious,
I'm thinkin' of you!

I pinch myself everyday,
Just to make sure your mine.
Why is my arm around your waist,
Why are my lips kissing yours?
Well isn't it obvious.
Well isn't it obvious,
I'm thinkin' of you.

What am I doin' here,
What the hell am I thinking?
Why is my arm around your waist,
Why are my lips kissing yours?
What am I doin' here,
What the hell am I thinking?
Well isn't it obvious,
I'm thinkin' of you!

hey everyone! wow it is so good to be home!! well i finally got the pictures on the computer and thought i would put some on here!!!

well camp was awesome as always...the theme of the week was "Home Makeover.. Life Edition" i was so excited to go! it was a geat opportunity to get in a place where your surrounded by God 24/7! well day before we were to leave my pastor said something that just stuck out in my head all week at camp.. "Take everything to the next level, Stay focused, Live for the Lord. Have a Bright Future...God loves you just the way you are but he refuses to keep you that way." wow this was when i totally knew i was going to get something BIG out of camp!! our speaker was Saun Sears and he just did an awesome job speaking to us, his messages were so clear and he put it into words were we could truely understand the message. it was great! some of our lessons we  learned were how to be a person of influence (1 Peter 2:9) and going down the right path in your life(Psalms 32:8) *exactly what i needed to be learning!  so the last night of camp we learned about making Godly choices and afterwords Saun says, "YOU CAN BE CONTENT WITH ANYTHING BUT ONLY TRUELY HAPPY WITH GOD." wow this is so true so many times do i put things in front of God and where he wants me to be thinking it will all make me happy when in actuality it dosent. so at that moment i made a decision to live my life 100% for God and to live out HIS plan for my life...not my own and also to have every aspect of my life to glorify God. well i would say i had an AMAZING week at camp!!

this was the band that was there! they were so good!!

just one of the songs that we sang and that got stuck in my head ALL WEEK!!!

well this is what i like to call kristens bright ideas at 2 in the morning (after curfew!) we also did a fashion show but sadly no pictures of that... : )

me getting some BIG AIR!!!!

THEN it was on to Florida!!! i had an awesome time! my mom had a business trip to Orlando and so we just decided to turn it into a family vacation!! while she was at her classes me, my dad, and josh went out and did a lot of stuff!! we went to Wet and Wild Waterpark http://www.wetnwild.com/orlando/pages/attr_01.html (which  was awesome!!) then we went on a airboat ride through all these alligators and stuff... yeah u go SO fast and like alligators everywhere and there are so seatbelts... i wasnt really feelin the no seatbelt deal!! lol then we went to Universal Studios and to Island of Adventure too that was so much fun! me and josh rode all the roller coasters http://www.orlandoattractions.com/content/parks-attractions/universal_orlando/islands_of_adventure/#TopPicks it was exciting!!! and we also went out to eat at some really great resturants MAN they have some great food down there!!!

that is looking off of our balcany at the hotel! i forgot to get a picture of it at night but it was so beautiful!! farther back is Disney World and at night they would shoot fireworks and we would go out there and watch their fireworks!!!

this was down at the pool!!

this was the airboat place!! they only sit down in the water like 2 or 3 inches so they could go on land too!!

this is where we started from...

that is a ALLIGATOR!!!!!! notice the camera was sideways because i was freaking out while taking this picture!!

i love this picture!!

they had wild ponys too and the guy said this baby one was only 3 days old!!

this is my FIRST EVER TASTE of CHEESECAKE!!!!! mm it was strawberry and i kinda liked it!!

then we went to Ripleys Museum and saw this guy.. hes the tallest person in the world and he is 8'4''!!! that is what it feels like standing next to BEN!! i have to say that made me smile!!!

well i guess u could say i had an AWESOME two weeks but i still missed all of you!!! i cant wait to see u guys again!!! i love ya'll!! have a GREAT day!!!!

3!!

kristen

WELL THIS IS THE STORY ALL ABOUT HOW....................

MAN I LOVE THAT SHOW!!!!!

WELL LIFE IS GOING PRETTY GOOD RIGHT NOW ........ WE START MOVING HOPEFULLY TONITE SOOOOO YEAH MUCH EXCITEMENT!!!! LEAVE ME REAMRKS CAUSE IM NOT GETTIN LOVE!!! : (

I feel like I can't go on.  I mean he's been gone since Monday.  I have never gone that long without seeing him!  I don't know... there's just something about him that makes me want to go crazy and other times just sit there and think.  I don't know.  The only reason I could think of is that I'm in love...

well more lovely news from the drama filled house of Farrar....my brother's new girlfriend candace is pregnant.

many know why... but i have been so excited here lately.. but anyway..i just thought i'd share how happy i've been recently... but to those who don't know the tale... i appologize... I don't live and tell..... mmmm...
---------------
i can feel the growing chill
of the morning air blowing
through your hair
and catch the scent of
that suave shampoo
that i once gave to you...
oh if only you knew...
oh if only you knew...

if only you could see
what i believe
what you do to me...
If you could see this smile...
This smile that's in private..
That to darkness I reveal...

perhaps one day..
you'll see it all.

So there's this girl.

And she lives an hour ahead of me.

And we have a lot in common.

And she makes me excited.

I enjoy talking to her immensely.


::b

i miss you guys a lot .... A LOT

so when your in tx and its 95 degrees and the AC goes out you leave

yeah our AC in out temp house died so they moved us into a different one with a net connection and bigger beds and green fuzzy bath mats

friday we go and set up in the new apartment and the dsl will get installed then too.

saturday we drive to dallas to get heather and teresa on a flight to SanAntonio. then its just me and dad for the next 2 weeks! well have blast cause we are so much alike. pops always tells dad that im the child dad deserved. lol its great i love being like him

ok well i miss you guys tons ill talk to you soon

much love

-emily

so its come to a point where the hair color just has to change...in these situations, i would usually chop it all off, but i love my long hair too much, so its back to black baby!!

((i think only elizabeth and possibly a few others will understand this...maybe, maybe not))

Sometimes I wonder if my life has really been a testament to the Light.  The Light of the World?  That's us.  We can't go around living life being too woried how people see us, or how we can change ourselves to look good enough to fit in.  Open our eyes. Open our hearts.  How can we reach out to others when we can't even accept ourselves?  Think of the blessings we have just living in such a blessed country!  How many of us has three meals a day, a roof over our heads, and clothes on our back?  It is so hard to be satsified with what we have.  Is this really part of sinful man's folly?  So let's train our minds, guard ourselves, and become the armor bearing people that we ought to be.

So do we really believe that the Spirit can empower us to speak?

i got Duantless in Mattress this fall at the center... im pretty freaking excited!!!!!!

Corrine got Larken- and im so excited.

Im so hoping Rachel and Jackie get the next call!

My cell phone bill is still staring me down with a knife

so...God just continues to answer prayers!

Not much happened on Wednesday on the "moving front".  Sent a 20 page packet to the S. African Embassy to apply for VISAs for Decy, Chely, Thasya to S. Africa ... and sent the audio exam results to the ISOS Dr.  I took a sneak peak at the results .... oddly (ahem) each person's results looked nearly identical to each others ... guess we could all hear the "baseline" auto traffic from outside.  hmmm, I can almost imagine the "beep, beep, beep" I still can't hear.

RE work, what a mess. Trying to dig out and not fall too far behind.  July and August will be killer months due to our "annual planning cycle".  Its tons of work, long hours, much frustration.  All at a time, when I am a "short timer", trying to pack up, and say goodbye to all my friends.

Answers.......  I finally found someone genuinely interested in me for who I am... and that's a great feeling!  All any of us needs is acceptance.  Love.  The feeling that we can be ourselves and be accepted. 

wow. it has been a while. but! i am finally updating!

so where should i start? i guess wedding stuff...

the days before were pretty busy and VERY stressful. but i really enjoyed the weddding day. i really enjoyed getting ready with my girls... which consisted of lots of dancing and singing... and funny pictures of many unbridal things. all of which helped relieve all the nervousness. my girls and my step-dad and i did the chicken dance before we walked down the aisle. it was great! the ceremony was beautiful (so i was told... and i loved who i was looking at!) the reception was fun! i was able to dance to my "fun girly dance songs" with amber and sarah... and my cousin's husband even joined in during "its all coming back to me now". it was classic, here's a little photo recap:











i know that we have not uploaded more pictures... and we are sorry about that... but we currently do not have internet access at our apartment, but we will hopefully upload some more soon!

our trip to san fran was awesome! i love it there. very hilly, but it is nice. i got to see sea lions, penguins, the tall redwood trees and other san fran tourist things. we ate at a cheesecake factory on to of macy's in union square and we froze out in cali. it was rather chilly by the bay. nathan bought me a lil stuffed sea lion that makes a sea lion sound. i loved to make it do that at the most random times... the plane ride was long... but it was great! i definitely want to go back again one day.

after all the cloud nine stuff i was forced back down to reality with a real job... yes a full time childcare job. three years olds can be vicious little wolves just waiting to devour you. seriously. horrilbe. if you know of any good full time job openings feel free to let me know...

married life however is great! i love spending time with my husband and being a little wife. i actually enjoy cooking and doing all that stuff. nathan is the best husband! i lovelovelove him!

my birthday was last week... and nathan had a surprise party for me. it was my first surprise party and it was fun! i had a pretty good birthday. and as most of you saw, nathan got me a little guinea pig. she is so cute... except for when she poops on me... and then i retract that statement.

my mom got me this great macbook... i know you can't see it and too bad for you because it is great. i loooooove it!

so that is my update. life has been crazy but very wonderful. i hope that everyone is doing very well! have a great night!

so i might be getting a job at pizza hut
most likely washing dishes for minimum wage
but right now i really don't care

i've been at morgan's the past two days
we've been hanging out and getting my mind off things
[not to mention the 2AM salad and popcorn}

but yeah me and sean are going through some tough stuff
and i really don't know what to do
let's hope love doesn't dissolve

yeaahhh

I'm weak.

I'm so weak.

I did it.

I got a Myspace

Everything in Memphis went very well, I'm schedualed for my first semester of classes, I have 16 hours and the dean of the college of fine arts told me that it won't be difficult.

I have the most amazing person in my life. Everyone remembers Tyler right? Well we've always had a kinda bumpy relationship. I thought that all the bumps were out for a while, after what happened last month. It was going great, but I caused a large bump this time. This is why I deleted my myspace profile, it was basically taking over my life and causing many personal problems. I had told myself that I was going to take care of it myself, Tyler wouldn't find out and he wouldn't get hurt. This first part I did. He also found out and saw the evidence. This hurt him very badly, and it hurt me too that I was the one which hurt him. I went to see him today because I wanted to talk about everything so we could get over this and see where it left us. Basically, I felt what love feels like today. I was crying and he was holding me, I just can't describe how it felt. I know he loves me, and I love him. I have also lied to him and hurt him. I'm going to try my hardest to make it up to him and show him that I really do love him as much as he loves me. I know we'll be fine. This boy is a keeper. There's other stuff that went on, but I don't think a blog is the place to put it.

<3

oh yeah! I got called to go into a recording studio and record this guys music w/ some other people. I'm so excited!

how random: I just won tickets to see aly & aj on friday night. . .and backstage passes.

wurd.